Motherhood – Page 2

byanniemd007
Aug 19,22
before and after, childhood trauma, Married Life, Middle Aged Women, Mommy Makeover, Motherhood, Plastic Surgery & weight loss journey

Barbie Girl

I am 7.5 months post-op for my Extended Abdominoplasty aka Plus-size Tummy Tuck, with repair of my diastasis recti and liposuction to the flanks. My BMI was 41 on the day of surgery. Now it vacillates between 37-38. I’m short AF. Just 5’almost4”. Women’s sizes are weird, as you know.…

byanniemd007
Aug 15,22
Annie whole life, childhood trauma, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, Plus Size Plastic Surgery, PTSD

Dill Chicken 🖤

It must have been 7th grade when we lived on 45th Street in East Sac. Not 45th and J. Not even 45th and H. More like 45th and F, if you know what I mean. Not the Lady Bird street. It was Doc’s house. He was nice enough, unless I…

byanniemd007
Aug 13,22
abandonment, Annie whole life, childhood trauma, Grief, Loss, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, neglect, Plus Size Plastic Surgery

Sink or Swim 🖤

After my mom’s car accident, she got an insurance settlement. I can’t remember how much it was. It was enough to buy her a brand new candy apple red Honda Prelude, the nicest car she ever bought herself. It was cute and sporty and seemed to elevate us. When she…

byanniemd007
Aug 07,22
Annie whole life, childhood trauma, Drunk Driving, graduation, Grief, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, Plus Size Plastic Surgery, Seat Belt

Diet Dr. Pepper 🖤

When I was just finishing 8th grade my mother was hit by a drunk driver on her way home from work. It was a head on collision that almost killed her. The passenger was killed instantly and the drunk driver died on the way to the hospital. She was lucky…

byanniemd007
Aug 06,22
abandonment, Annie whole life, childhood trauma, College Visits, Empty Nest, Grief, Loss, Love, Middle Aged Women, Mommy Makeover, Motherhood, neglect, Plus Size Plastic Surgery, Road Trip

Don’t Get It Twisted

I just said goodbye to my daughter as she left on a road trip from CA to TN to take her lifelong childhood BSF (that’s teen for Best Sister Friend) to college. Cass doesn’t start college until mid-September. So we get a month with her before she leaves us. Before…

byanniemd007
Aug 05,22
abandonment, Annie whole life, childhood trauma, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, Plus Size Plastic Surgery

Bits and Pieces 🖤

I wish I could remember my childhood in chronological order so I could tell you a story from start to finish. But I can’t. I try, but it’s all jumbled up. I try thinking about it year by year, grade by grade, but we moved and I changed schools so…

byanniemd007
Aug 04,22
abandonment, Annie whole life, childhood trauma, Grief, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, neglect

What the Fork?! 🖤

Mom and Tony #1 taught me table manners, like don’t put your elbows on the table. I wonder if they remember these things as I do? I wonder if they thought it was funny in the moment? If they thought it was good parenting? It wasn’t and isn’t, and I…

byanniemd007
Aug 02,22
abandonment, Annie whole life, childhood trauma, Grief, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, neglect, PTSD

Jack-In-the-Crack 🖤

I don’t know where to begin. Definitely not in Times New Roman. Not Arial. Maybe Book Antiqua. For sure not Comic Sans. I have always written things. My thoughts, my memories, my joy, my sorrow. You name it. Just not term papers. Never quite lived up to my “academic potential”…

byanniemd007
Jul 31,22
Annie whole life, Babies, Grief, High Risk Maternity, Labor & Delivery, Loss, Miscarriage, Motherhood, Nurse

Lo Siento, Mama

It gets me every time. Thankfully, it usually waits until I get home. I love my job. But sometimes, it’s fucking hard. And not always in a stressful, too busy, or emergent way. Sometimes it’s hard to be part of the team that takes care of the aftermath. The nothing…

byanniemd007
Jul 27,22
abandonment, Annie whole life, childhood trauma, First apartment, Grief, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, neglect

Too Much and Not Enough 🖤

I had my own apartment at age 15. My mother had fallen in love, again. This one would become her 3rd husband. She was good at falling in love. There would be two more husbands after that one. It was the staying that she had trouble with… By the time…