Grief – Annie D.

A Year in the Life

I haven’t sent out Christmas cards in years. No Christmas letter to wrap up the year. The kids are grown and I post as I go, so why send a card? Why write a letter? Maybe it’s for me. So I can put it all into perspective. 2023 felt big…

byanniemd007
May 18,23
before and after, childhood trauma, Empty Nest, Girl Power, Grief, Married Life, Middle Age Woman, Middle Aged Women, Mommy Makeover, Nurse, Plastic Surgeons, Plastic Surgery & weight loss journey, Plastic Surgery Revision, Self-love, Social Media, tummy tuck scar, Writer

Kaleidoscope

POV: This is what an #emptynester #nightshiftnurse #californiagirl does when she gets called off due to low census after unsuccessfully trying to sleep all day. Rolled straight out of bed into my controversial string bikini, drank a protein drink, ate some burnt roasted Brussels sprouts and half of my bean…

byanniemd007
May 07,23
Anti-Obesity Medication, before and after, childhood trauma, Empty Nest, Girl Power, Grief, Middle Age Woman, Mommy Makeover, Motherhood, Obesity, Obesity Medication, Plastic Surgery & weight loss journey, Self-love, Social Media, Treatment of Obesity, Writer

Fly Girl

I’m all in my feels today. Let me count the ways: 1. I went back to work and I worked three in a row with some of my closest friends. They made it easy on me cuz they are all the strongest of nurses. It’s easy to be in charge…

byanniemd007
Jan 13,23
Annie whole life, childhood trauma, Dreams, Grief, Loss, Love, Poetry, Psychic

Cut. Cut. Cut. 🖤

I write poems when I sleep. I woke up to words flowing in my dream, but I didn’t write them down in time. They flew away on gossamer wings and then they fell from the sky in cement shoes. Is it worth getting out of bed for this? My grandpa…

byanniemd007
Dec 22,22
Annie whole life, Babies, childhood trauma, Christmas, Domestic Violence, Empty Nest, Girl Power, Grief, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, Plus Size Plastic Surgery

Fragile. But not. 🖤

When we lived with Doc, we were artsy. We went to see movies at Tower Theatre. Movies that I think are cool now, but not the ones I wanted to see then. We saw El Norte, The Gods Must Be Crazy, Out of Africa, Raising Arizona, The Legend of Greystoke,…

byanniemd007
Nov 14,22
Annie whole life, Coming of Age, Grief, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, neglect, PTSD

Doorbell Ditch 🖤

So I haven’t felt like writing lately. I’ve been stuck in my head with thoughts that hide, even from myself. Unidentified tears sting but don’t fall, because if I admit why they are there or where they belong, it’s too much. Overwhelming. Sometimes, it’s all too much. And as you…

byanniemd007
Oct 09,22
Annie whole life, First apartment, Grief, Loss, Love, Middle Age Woman, Middle Aged Women, neglect

I Need Love 🖤

I texted Sara S. to warn her I was writing about us and she reminded me about some of our highlights. I can’t believe I forgot about this one. Idiots. Lucky to be alive and walking. During the summer after 9th grade, me and Nadia went with Sara S. up…

byanniemd007
Aug 27,22
abandonment, Annie whole life, childhood trauma, Grandparents, Fishing, Covid, Paxlovid, Horse Races, Grief, Love, Middle Aged Women, neglect

Afterwhile, Crocodile 🖤

Robbie has covid. So irritating. Got him on Paxlovid the same day he had obvious symptoms and a positive at home antigen swab, done by me, probably more aggressive than he would have done. The second line popped up right away. Seems like me and Gma Pat are the last…

byanniemd007
Aug 13,22
abandonment, Annie whole life, childhood trauma, Grief, Loss, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, neglect, Plus Size Plastic Surgery

Sink or Swim 🖤

After my mom’s car accident, she got an insurance settlement. I can’t remember how much it was. It was enough to buy her a brand new candy apple red Honda Prelude, the nicest car she ever bought herself. It was cute and sporty and seemed to elevate us. When she…

byanniemd007
Aug 11,22
Anesthesia, before and after, childhood trauma, Empty Nest, Grief, Loss, Love, Middle Age Woman, Middle Aged Women, Plastic Surgery & weight loss journey

Tits Up

OMG. My tits are going viral! In the middle of the night the Daily Mail in the UK published a story about my breast reduction and now all these other news outlets have picked it up, mostly in the UK at this point. Some in the EU and US, even…