neglect – Annie D.

byanniemd007
Dec 27,22
abandonment, childhood trauma, Coming of Age, Domestic Violence, Empty Nest, Girl Power, Married Life, Middle Aged Women, Mommy Makeover, Motherhood, Mounjaro, neglect, Nurse, Plastic Surgery & weight loss journey, Self-love, Social Media

Sit Back and Enjoy the Ride

I have been making videos on TikTok for months. It filled my time during my surgical recovery and my walking updates motivated me to get up, brush my teeth, put on something presentable and to get my ass up and walk. I had a few viral videos of the day…

byanniemd007
Nov 14,22
Annie whole life, Coming of Age, Grief, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, neglect, PTSD

Doorbell Ditch 🖤

So I haven’t felt like writing lately. I’ve been stuck in my head with thoughts that hide, even from myself. Unidentified tears sting but don’t fall, because if I admit why they are there or where they belong, it’s too much. Overwhelming. Sometimes, it’s all too much. And as you…

byanniemd007
Oct 19,22
abandonment, Annie whole life, childhood trauma, Coming of Age, Drunk Driving, graduation, Motherhood, neglect

Ride or Die 🖤

1, 2, skip a few, 99, 100. Remember, we don’t have to go in order. I reserve the right to go back in time at any time. It was the summer of 1990. I was 17 and I had just graduated from high school. My roommates, Cynderella and Ten, also…

byanniemd007
Oct 09,22
Annie whole life, First apartment, Grief, Loss, Love, Middle Age Woman, Middle Aged Women, neglect

I Need Love 🖤

I texted Sara S. to warn her I was writing about us and she reminded me about some of our highlights. I can’t believe I forgot about this one. Idiots. Lucky to be alive and walking. During the summer after 9th grade, me and Nadia went with Sara S. up…

byanniemd007
Oct 04,22
abandonment, Annie whole life, childhood trauma, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, neglect, Road Trip

Burning Bridge 🖤

I’m stuck. I have been avoiding writing. This part has deep feelings, as they all do, but it’s not just nostalgia. It’s a story of bravery, growth, trust, and survival. For all of us. And deep blue pain, a shade different from the rest. We are at the point of…

byanniemd007
Sep 17,22
Annie whole life, childhood trauma, Hypnosis, Middle Aged Women, neglect, Ouija Board, Plus Size Plastic Surgery, PTSD

No Ouija Boards Allowed 🖤

In middle school, I had a real best friend. One I chose for myself, and one that chose me right back. I don’t even remember the first day I met Sara. I hope she does. We were always together. Package deal for two whole years. We had RT bus passes…

byanniemd007
Sep 06,22
Annie whole life, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, neglect, Rafting

Riding the Rapids 🖤

My friend, Jen, gave me an icy cold Squirt in a can, yesterday. I haven’t had a Squirt in years. Like I can’t remember when. It was so good, especially in this 111 degree heat. Squirt reminds me of my childhood, which I seem to have been avoiding. My dad…

byanniemd007
Aug 27,22
abandonment, Annie whole life, childhood trauma, Grandparents, Fishing, Covid, Paxlovid, Horse Races, Grief, Love, Middle Aged Women, neglect

Afterwhile, Crocodile 🖤

Robbie has covid. So irritating. Got him on Paxlovid the same day he had obvious symptoms and a positive at home antigen swab, done by me, probably more aggressive than he would have done. The second line popped up right away. Seems like me and Gma Pat are the last…

byanniemd007
Aug 13,22
abandonment, Annie whole life, childhood trauma, Grief, Loss, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, neglect, Plus Size Plastic Surgery

Sink or Swim 🖤

After my mom’s car accident, she got an insurance settlement. I can’t remember how much it was. It was enough to buy her a brand new candy apple red Honda Prelude, the nicest car she ever bought herself. It was cute and sporty and seemed to elevate us. When she…

byanniemd007
Aug 06,22
abandonment, Annie whole life, childhood trauma, College Visits, Empty Nest, Grief, Loss, Love, Middle Aged Women, Mommy Makeover, Motherhood, neglect, Plus Size Plastic Surgery, Road Trip

Don’t Get It Twisted

I just said goodbye to my daughter as she left on a road trip from CA to TN to take her lifelong childhood BSF (that’s teen for Best Sister Friend) to college. Cass doesn’t start college until mid-September. So we get a month with her before she leaves us. Before…