adolescence – Annie

byanniemd007
May 31,23
50th Birthday, Coming of Age, Friendship, Girl Power, Middle Age Woman, Middle Aged Women, Road Trip

La Vida Loca 🖤

My girls. We have been living la vida loca for 35 years. The photo above was taken in 1999 at my Bachelorette Weekend in Rosarito Beach, Mexico. We drove across the border from LA. Caravanning in like 4 separate cars. They tried to surprise me with the location and Nadia…

byanniemd007
Dec 27,22
abandonment, childhood trauma, Coming of Age, Domestic Violence, Empty Nest, Girl Power, Married Life, Middle Aged Women, Mommy Makeover, Motherhood, Mounjaro, neglect, Nurse, Self-love, Social Media

Sit Back and Enjoy the Ride

I have been making videos on TikTok for months. It filled my time during my surgical recovery and my walking updates motivated me to get up, brush my teeth, put on something presentable and to get my ass up and walk. I had a few viral videos of the day…

byanniemd007
Dec 22,22
Babies, childhood trauma, Christmas, Domestic Violence, Empty Nest, Girl Power, Grief, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, Plus Size Plastic Surgery

Fragile. But not. 🖤

When we lived with Doc, we were artsy. We went to see movies at Tower Theatre. Movies that I think are cool now, but not the ones I wanted to see then. We saw El Norte, The Gods Must Be Crazy, Out of Africa, Raising Arizona, The Legend of Greystoke,…

byanniemd007
Oct 19,22
abandonment, childhood trauma, Coming of Age, Drunk Driving, graduation, Motherhood, neglect

Ride or Die 🖤

1, 2, skip a few, 99, 100. Remember, we don’t have to go in order. I reserve the right to go back in time at any time. It was the summer of 1990. I was 17 and I had just graduated from high school. My roommates, Cynderella and Ten, also…

byanniemd007
Oct 09,22
First apartment, Grief, Loss, Love, Middle Age Woman, Middle Aged Women, neglect

I Need Love 🖤

I texted Sara S. to warn her I was writing about us and she reminded me about some of our highlights. I can’t believe I forgot about this one. Idiots. Lucky to be alive and walking. During the summer after 9th grade, me and Nadia went with Sara S. up…

byanniemd007
Oct 04,22
abandonment, childhood trauma, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, neglect, Road Trip

Burning Bridge 🖤

I’m stuck. I have been avoiding writing. This part has deep feelings, as they all do, but it’s not just nostalgia. It’s a story of bravery, growth, trust, and survival. For all of us. And deep blue pain, a shade different from the rest. We are at the point of…

byanniemd007
Sep 17,22
childhood trauma, Hypnosis, Middle Aged Women, neglect, Ouija Board, Plus Size Plastic Surgery, PTSD

No Ouija Boards Allowed 🖤

In middle school, I had a real best friend. One I chose for myself, and one that chose me right back. I don’t even remember the first day I met Sara. I hope she does. We were always together. Package deal for two whole years. We had RT bus passes…

byanniemd007
Aug 15,22
childhood trauma, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, Plus Size Plastic Surgery, PTSD

Dill Chicken 🖤

It must have been 7th grade when we lived on 45th Street in East Sac. Not 45th and J. Not even 45th and H. More like 45th and F, if you know what I mean. Not the Lady Bird street. It was Doc’s house. He was nice enough, unless I…

byanniemd007
Aug 07,22
childhood trauma, Drunk Driving, graduation, Grief, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, Plus Size Plastic Surgery, Seat Belt

Diet Dr. Pepper 🖤

When I was just finishing 8th grade my mother was hit by a drunk driver on her way home from work. It was a head on collision that almost killed her. The passenger was killed instantly and the drunk driver died on the way to the hospital. She was lucky…

byanniemd007
Jul 27,22
abandonment, childhood trauma, First apartment, Grief, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, neglect

Too Much and Not Enough 🖤

I had my own apartment at age 15. My mother had fallen in love, again. This one would become her 3rd husband. She was good at falling in love. There would be two more husbands after that one. It was the staying that she had trouble with… By the time…