CKM – Annie

byanniemd007
May 31,23
50th Birthday, Coming of Age, Friendship, Girl Power, Middle Age Woman, Middle Aged Women, Road Trip

La Vida Loca 🖤

My girls. We have been living la vida loca for 35 years. The photo above was taken in 1999 at my Bachelorette Weekend in Rosarito Beach, Mexico. We drove across the border from LA. Caravanning in like 4 separate cars. They tried to surprise me with the location and Nadia…

byanniemd007
Oct 19,22
abandonment, childhood trauma, Coming of Age, Drunk Driving, graduation, Motherhood, neglect

Ride or Die 🖤

1, 2, skip a few, 99, 100. Remember, we don’t have to go in order. I reserve the right to go back in time at any time. It was the summer of 1990. I was 17 and I had just graduated from high school. My roommates, Cynderella and Ten, also…

byanniemd007
Oct 09,22
First apartment, Grief, Loss, Love, Middle Age Woman, Middle Aged Women, neglect

I Need Love 🖤

I texted Sara S. to warn her I was writing about us and she reminded me about some of our highlights. I can’t believe I forgot about this one. Idiots. Lucky to be alive and walking. During the summer after 9th grade, me and Nadia went with Sara S. up…

byanniemd007
Oct 04,22
abandonment, childhood trauma, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, neglect, Road Trip

Burning Bridge 🖤

I’m stuck. I have been avoiding writing. This part has deep feelings, as they all do, but it’s not just nostalgia. It’s a story of bravery, growth, trust, and survival. For all of us. And deep blue pain, a shade different from the rest. We are at the point of…

byanniemd007
Sep 11,22
Babies, childhood trauma, College Visits, Empty Nest, Loss, Love, Married Life, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, Plus Size Plastic Surgery

Puerto Backyarda

I guess I’m predictable. Sometimes, anyway. I’m all in my feelings about taking my baby girl to college at Cal Poly SLO in two days. Two more sleeps with us. One more sleep in her own bed in her own room. Then one night in a hotel in Pismo Beach,…

byanniemd007
Jul 27,22
abandonment, childhood trauma, First apartment, Grief, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, neglect

Too Much and Not Enough 🖤

I had my own apartment at age 15. My mother had fallen in love, again. This one would become her 3rd husband. She was good at falling in love. There would be two more husbands after that one. It was the staying that she had trouble with… By the time…

byanniemd007
Jun 20,22
graduation, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood

Tempest in a Teacup

Where do I start? What do I share? What do I keep to myself, locked in my heart and my head? There is so much… Last week was a whirlwind. A tempest in teacup. I have been just floating and riding the waves, not yet capsized. A lot of this…

byanniemd007
May 18,22
Middle Aged Women, Mommy Makeover, Motherhood

Proud of My Gawd Damn Self

Today I celebrated something significant to me. It was the CKM Humanities and International Studies Program’s Senior BBQ, Class of 2022. And I am so very proud of my daughter. My kids. Both of them are HISP graduates. Survivors. Academic warriors. Hard workers. Solid writers. Smart cookies. But here is…

byanniemd007
May 15,22
Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, Senior Ball

All the lasts…

Last one. Forever. C. K. McClatchy High School Senior Ball 2022 I hope they know these days don’t come again and I hope they have the most fun they have ever had. I hope they know that it has been the best part of my life watching them all grow…