green eyes – Annie

byanniemd007
Oct 04,22
abandonment, Annie whole life, childhood trauma, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, neglect, Road Trip

Burning Bridge 🖤

I’m stuck. I have been avoiding writing. This part has deep feelings, as they all do, but it’s not just nostalgia. It’s a story of bravery, growth, trust, and survival. For all of us. And deep blue pain, a shade different from the rest. We are at the point of…

byanniemd007
Sep 14,22
Annie whole life, College Visits, Empty Nest, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, Nurse

Not Yet Goodbye

Today was a long day. I set my alarm for 0700 so we could leave by 0730, which is the time Cassidy thought would be best to get us to Cal Poly SLO in time, considering move-in traffic, for her 0830 time slot. She is the orchestrator. We follow her…

byanniemd007
Sep 06,22
Annie whole life, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, neglect, Rafting

Riding the Rapids 🖤

My friend, Jen, gave me an icy cold Squirt in a can, yesterday. I haven’t had a Squirt in years. Like I can’t remember when. It was so good, especially in this 111 degree heat. Squirt reminds me of my childhood, which I seem to have been avoiding. My dad…

byanniemd007
Aug 15,22
Annie whole life, childhood trauma, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, Plus Size Plastic Surgery, PTSD

Dill Chicken 🖤

It must have been 7th grade when we lived on 45th Street in East Sac. Not 45th and J. Not even 45th and H. More like 45th and F, if you know what I mean. Not the Lady Bird street. It was Doc’s house. He was nice enough, unless I…

byanniemd007
Aug 13,22
abandonment, Annie whole life, childhood trauma, Grief, Loss, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, neglect, Plus Size Plastic Surgery

Sink or Swim 🖤

After my mom’s car accident, she got an insurance settlement. I can’t remember how much it was. It was enough to buy her a brand new candy apple red Honda Prelude, the nicest car she ever bought herself. It was cute and sporty and seemed to elevate us. When she…

byanniemd007
Aug 07,22
Annie whole life, childhood trauma, Drunk Driving, graduation, Grief, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, Plus Size Plastic Surgery, Seat Belt

Diet Dr. Pepper 🖤

When I was just finishing 8th grade my mother was hit by a drunk driver on her way home from work. It was a head on collision that almost killed her. The passenger was killed instantly and the drunk driver died on the way to the hospital. She was lucky…

byanniemd007
Jul 27,22
abandonment, Annie whole life, childhood trauma, First apartment, Grief, Love, Middle Aged Women, Motherhood, neglect

Too Much and Not Enough 🖤

I had my own apartment at age 15. My mother had fallen in love, again. This one would become her 3rd husband. She was good at falling in love. There would be two more husbands after that one. It was the staying that she had trouble with… By the time…

25 Random Things About Me

1. All I ever wanted to be when I “grew up” was a mommy.2. I went to 15 different schools from Kindergarten to 12th grade.3. I had my own apartment at age 15, Junior year of highschool.4. I got married in a movie theatre.5. I met Robbie behind Brookfield, at…